Today is Isabel's 4 week birthday! We haven't measured her yet but she looks and feels a lot bigger. Her lungpower has definitely increased too!
I was mulling over how the first 4 weeks with her have been, and I think motherhood is both easier and more difficult than I thought it would be. The difficult part is obvious; why did I think I would be immune to sleep deprivation? Taking care of a baby is hard work, and my grumpiness at being woken from a deep sleep is the stuff of legend.
So what's easier than I thought it would be? Well, I've never had that "maternal instinct". When someone would point out a cute baby at a restaurant, my response would be to shrug my shoulders and continue chowing down. I was worried about how I'd respond to my own baby. I was sure the doctors and nurses at the hospital would be able to tell I was a fraud and not let me leave the hospital with Isabel. I shouldn't have been concerned though; loving her is the easiest and most natural thing I've ever done. I felt like "a mom" as soon as I held her. Of course, there are times when I'm overwhelmed, grumpy, and desperate for a full night's sleep. But hey, what new mom isn't?
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